No, it’s not because a professor called in sick. I talked with my parents about school. They have seen how unhappy I was and want me to be happy. For that I am grateful! I was so worried about disappointing them that it was hard to want to bring it up to them. But my dad was the one to break that wall. As of today I am no longer a student, well in the sense that I’m not going to school. I can still learn a plenty from books:) Just the way I like it.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to be. What I do know is that my passion lies with helping people, caring for them, and being with kids. I love kids, adore them! School and me are not the best of friends, but who says I have to have a degree to do what I love. Sure it makes life easier, but what can I say, I’m a rebel and enjoy doing things the hard way. Of course now I have no excuse to not work more, but that’s okay. Soon enough I’m going to want to move out. I’ve been looking around, trying to find a descent place with a descent price. I’m looking more into a studio.
I still need to figure out this depression and anxiety. I’m trying to get back in to seeing my counselor and I’m going to speak to a lady who works for my Church. I never had a Spiritual Adviser growing up, but that’s kind of what I’m looking for. I know I want to do more Missions through out the year. I’m looking forward to the Philippines in February and seeing my sister Tiffany. I’m not one to really carry about money and putting letters before/after my name. My dad always says he married up. Me, I used to want to be married by now, but with all the goings on, I’m actually okay with being single. I can keep finding myself and doing what I want how I want and when I want. I swear, all my sisters live in different states, so the guy I marry is bound to be from a different Country! That’s my life, the irony of it all.
For now I’m just gonna keep living. And decide what color to dye my hair. Not the whole head, but I want colored tips or a colored stripe in my hair. Any suggestions?