Introverts Part VIII

8. “We can’t underestimate the value of silence. We need to create ourselves, need to spend time alone. If you don’t, you risk not knowing yourself and not realizing your dreams.”

Jewel

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We can’t underestimate the value of silence. We really can’t, but complete silence, that I can not and will not do. It’s much to frightening. When I am home alone I will blast my radio to drown out the silence, but to me that is still silence. Like when I am out for run I enjoy hearing the birds sing, it’s still silent, but yet it is not. When I think of the word silence, the silence or calm before a storm is what comes to mind. I don’t like that. Hello! this is coming from a girl who grew up with 4 brothers and 1 sister. Things were like never quite in my house, so complete silence will never do. Not for me. Silence for me is with music turned on and I am sitting on my bed silent writing in my journal or reading a good book.

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We need to create ourselves, need to spend time alone. Spend time alone, well I am a complete expert on that. I enjoy spending time by myself, which might sound funny coming from someone who came from some what of a large family. I am happy and at peace when I am alone. Some of my best thoughts happen when I am alone. Tunes for my must come best when I am alone. I can think more clearly and with less pressure when I am alone. Can’t stand it when I am asked a question and I don’t have an answer for it up front. The worse things is having people stare at you while you are thinking.

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If you don’t, you risk not knowing yourself and not realizing your dreams. I have actually taken a whole note pad (not the one in the picture) and written down all things I want to do and see before I die. I pray that all of them will come true. At least it gives me something to believe in and dream upon. They are goals in my life that I can reach towards. Granted none will be easy, there will always be a challenge, but it will help build character. Help make me a better version of myself. Make a list and dream about them. It’s fun, it makes me happy.

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Here are some of my dreams: Be a Saint, Climb Mount Everest, Sky Dive, Go to London, Go to Africa, Scuba Dive, Stay in a real castle (like in Ireland) Go to Venice, Learn to Ski, Go to Peru……….. I have 34 dreams and counting.

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Introverts VII

7. “Now that you’re an adult, you might still feel a pang of guilt when you decline a dinner invitation in favor of a good book. Or maybe you like to eat alone in restaurants and could do without the pitying looks from fellow diners. Or you’re told that you’re “in your head too much”, a phrase that’s often deployed against the quiet and cerebral.

Or maybe there’s another word for such people: thinkers.”

Susan Cain

 

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This is me and that white fluffy ball is my dog Bear. I was a little bored when I took this. He was just in the right spot at the right time. I am currently reading “The Giver” by Lois Lowry. A very incredible book and one I recommend. The movie I think comes out soon, who wan’t to take me 🙂 ?

 

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I just wanted to point out through this picture that even though I am 20 years of age that does not make me an adult in the least. I am still a kid at heart and soul and mind. After all only children can enter into the Kingdom of God! And yes I am a very deep thinker. And there is no way I would go to a restaurant by myself or the movies! Totally embarrassing…. for me at least. I should point out that I have turned down certain invitations in order to stay home and read my book. Or watch a good movie. One that is either Comedy or lots of action and violence. Romance, can’t really stand them unless its in with comedy or lots of action and violence.

 

 

 

 

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Perhaps I am in my head too much. Though that is all a matter of opinion. Personally I feel somewhat safer there. And things can get a little more interesting there. I am a big dreamer and have a huge imagination. It is who I am and no one can take that away! Again be who you are, be who God created you to be. Don’t worry about what others are thinking or saying. I know it isn’t easy, but it’s what we have to do in order to keep going on. Me I am a DORK. I have ORANGE hair. I LOVE Doctor Who. I am a BOOK WORM. And TONS more……

Introverts VI

6. “The only problem with seeing people you know is that they know you.”

Brent Runyon, The Burn Journals

 

 

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For me this is very true. It’s not that I don’t like them or don’t want to talk to them….. Well maybe the last part isn’t true. I just don’t always no what to say or how to say what I want to say. Like now…..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Okay so lets try this again. In my last blog I had written about books. That they are my escape from this world into another. I guess talking to people I know is strange to me. I’m not sure I am getting this right….. Ahhhhh!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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To be honest I would much rather just be left alone. I will talk when I want to talk. I do love having conversations, don’t get me wrong on that idea. But only on my terms. There have been times when I was out shopping and I saw someone that I knew. I saw you, but you did not see me. I’m pretty sneaky like that. Guess that’s why nickname is Sneaker. Oh, and when strangers come and say hi trying to strike up a conversation! Well that is the worse! Positively the worst. I am a shy person, so me just going up to someone I know or don’t know is likely to never happen. It’s just not me. Guess that’s why I don’t care for parties. Socializing, not one of my best skills. I am sure I am not alone on this one. At least I hope I am not. Someone state back that I am not alone on this! Please. To be the one girl on this planet who is like this. Yuck!!