The Unknown

It’s hard to keep going when all you want is for it to end. 

It can be pain or grief or life.

But the end of it all is what keeps you going, the unknown.

You just don’t know what the unknown will bring you. 


“Doe a deer, a female deer…”

On Sunday I had the wild experience of hitting my first deer. Let me just say it is not something I want to go through again. Not to mention it sucks having to share one care with three people.

So I was going between 55 and 60 at the time. When no one was around I would turn my brights on so I could see if there were any deer on the side of the road. I was coming from Mount Pleasant from visiting my boyfriend, so I was in the middle of no where. I was jamming to the “Sound of Music” sound track with it cranked up as almost high as it will go. I can’t remember if I looked down or up or to the side, but out of no where there she was, right in front of my car. I slammed on my breaks. I’mm not sure if I closed my eyes or not, but I do remember seeing her go up, but only a little that part was kind of like a haze. I remember the thud thought, that part was really loud. I didn’t cry it was more like a shocked yell and of agony because I hit a deer.

My hands were shaking. I tried driving forward so I could get to the side of the road. It wouldn’t move. I tried going backward, that didn’t work either. I tried it a couple more times. Still no luck. I put the hazard lights on and called my dad. It was his car after all. My hands were shacking and and so was my voice. I was rambling and my dad was just telling me to stop so he could talk. He told me to call 911 and to get out of the car and stand on the side of the road since the car was still stuck in my lane. So I did. Lots of people stopped by to see if I was okay. The deer was still laying there on the side in the grass and I could see her tummy moving. A couple pulled up and helped me push the car to the side. Well, they pushed and I put the car in neutral. After the car got moved I saw the deer trying to get up. I couldn’t look, but she ended up behind my car.

The tow truck still wasn’t there. It was may be a full half hour before it got there. He got out and I told him what happened. He took a look at the deer and she actually got up! I prayed to St. Francis asking him to either let her get up or to let her die quickly. Guess he went with the give up. She stood in the tall grass until the cop got there which was another fifteen minutes. He went to go shoot her as he saw her tongue sticking out. It was. But when he got to her she ran off. He followed, but came back. He let her live since she was moving fine.

My dad, mom, and brother came and got me. The car was towed away. Still waiting to see what happens to it….